seems like no more big eye of blincon after diz.. dat contact lens happened to make my eyes reddening..huh scary.. -_-
sue said it muz b caused by the lens as its kind o stern n firm a bit compared to da one dat i used to wear..
so no more blincon for me n freshkon it will be..

or mybe i shud juz wear da colourless one? ermmm..

the unpleasant me

they keep saying to let go because staying would make things worse... does it really implied to me?? i noe im not  s good s her..not s cute s her..not good in taking care nor concern abut u ,im selfish and all da bad thing goes to me..i thought that im not a da right person for u ..but my heart tells me to HOLD ON..still, theres always a whisper telling me to let go... right now i feel so empty .. n useless.. maybe its time i rest my case and let Allah do the rest..

p/s= lucky u forget abut diz blog..i can mumble things a lot here now.. people wont noe a thing n dats da good part of it

its hurt

after hearing it i tried my best not to get upset or something but it is really hard..
hard..it so hard and hurt..
i tried to sleep but my eye wont shut without the tears coming out..
its now 4.50 and my eyes were swollen because of it.."YA ALLAH TOLONG AKU YA ALLAH"..
a few packet of tissues wears out..
my head is hurting..my heart too
her nickname towards you keeps appearing through my mind..
and now she seems more special than i am before..
now i felt like im the one that getting inside both of you..
i told you that i dont mind but i do mind..
you told me you need a sleep but then you didnt cz she was upset of you..
i tried my best to understand the situation but my heart keeps hurting and the tears wont stop..i hate myself for that..sorry but it hurt me a lot

p/s: fo me its da unexpected  birthday present ever..jealousy kills me